This book always makes me cry.  Always.  I’ve been reading it for over 16 years and I don’t think I’ve ever made it through a reading with a dry eye.

The chorus…

“I’ll love you forever,

I’ll like you for always,

as long as your living

my baby you’ll be.”

tugs at my heart big time.

 Two nights ago I read this book to my sixteen year old son and he joked with me, ” Mom I hope you don’t sneak into my room tonight as start singing that to me!!”  Truth is I’ve sung that chorus to him a million times in my heart.

I sang it to him when he was newborn in my arms.  He was so painfully beautiful I didn’t think my heart could stand it.

I sang it to him as I followed his school bus on his first day of kindergarten.

I sang it to him through the challenges and in the moments of immense joy.

And now I’ll be singing it to him from 1,500 miles away.

Yesterday I kissed my baby goodbye.  He is starting a new journey now.

I’ve cried an ocean worth of tears.

My heart is aching.

Through this pain I am trusting that

God is in control.

God has this.

God knows.

 God will carry me through this pain.

Today, instead of staying inside and crying all day, I wiped my red-puffy eyes and packed my trunk with art stuff and easels and projects we could take outside.

We spent hours at the park. We got really dirty.  I took lots of pictures.

Taking pictures is always healing for me.

We played until dusk.
My heart
empty and full all at once.